Turn back time.....

Remember how we were talking on msn about it.....

Somehow i wish this was possible,to undo all the misery i've cause, to undo all wrongs....to make things better somehow=(

There's so much i wish i could undo...but i guess there never will be the chance seeing that i've taken things for granted...

Looking back, there's so much i could have done to be a better person...but it's too late to even think about it anymore...

Maybe it's been months of babbling cause i really fear bout the last few months of studies.....i really can't fail to pass everythingT_T.....what am I going to do.....how many years of school has it been seeing that i decided to changes things....

I've let down too many people in the past....

I've also realized that I'm exactly the kind of person who keeps to herself if i ever need help or get into trouble...

People think it's silly and stupid but they fail to understand that my logic is that if I get myself into trouble, it's bad enough to put myself into misery so much so that i should not drag anyone down with me. I look at it in such that I know i've disappointed myself so much...i couldn't bear to look anyone in the eyes and see the pain and disappointment they are bound to show.


It's true that no man's an island....but I have faith in myself each time I have to get out of unwanted situations....eventually I will even though it may not be the most ideal method, I know I want to correct things bad enough that I'll research through matters to find methods to resolve things...

So I guess funnily enough, without much realization, I'm a lot more independent that I give myself credit for...