My contact lens saga

Blubbs... so... I bought my first packet of monthly contact lens this weekend.... and asked the shop assistant to teach me how to wear. But you know me la, I'm such a scaredy cat.. Don't even dare to open my eye wide, touching my eyeball is almost impossible.. Tried and tried, but cannot, until my brother start to complain that we need to go home and eat dinner =__=

Hoho.. so go back home and practice lor... After so so so so so many hours, somehow I managed to get the right contact lens in my eye.. I forgot how I did it.. divine intervention maybe.. Nevertheless it felt really great to have nice vision! Even though abit weird, like there's some rubber band in my eye.. But sigh.. no matter how I try I can't get the left one in Then while I'm talking to my mum and my aunt (her family and my grandparents came down from KL for a visit ^^).. the right contact lens just fell out from my eyelid!!!!!! =_____________________= Fine fine... FINE..

Next day, practice time again... But no success.. not even one eye, so sad.. My left shoulder is aching badly.. I think because of me lifting up my arm to pry my eyes open.. sobzzz.. T__________T But at least now I dare to touch my eyeball, but but then the lens won't stick to my eye.. it won't leave my finger... maybe I blink too much or maybe my eyes didn't open big enough...sigh... in the end I try try touch here touch there (all the wrong places!) and got my eyes red =( At night I tried again, got the right one in but it felt so uncomfortable! I think I wore the wrong side of the lens.. so had to remove.. first time remove contact lens, it was much easier though.. I just put my finger on my eye and keep moving (more like rubbing) it off the corner of my eye.. hoho.. very special method right.. why I so pathetic T___T

Today hoho... I woke up super early to try my contact lens before I go to work (Well.. err I reset my alarm clock 2 times.. each time half an hour later cuz I cannot bear to leave my cosy bed) But but still, I woke about half an hour early.. Shoulder still aching T__T Now at least I dare to look in the mirror when I'm touching my eyes instead of looking elsewhere.. got improvement right?? After don't know how many tries.. I managed to get the left one in this time.. yahoo... But then............. I can't get the right one in!!!!!!!!!!!! I keep on trying for about 20 minutes, sometimes it got in but senget.. too downwards.. so when I blink it fell off instantly... I tried until I think I'm gonna be really late if I don't move.. I didn't want to waste the time and effort I spent putting on the left contact lens.. so I left my place wearing only one contact lens. I know, very stupid idea =____= at first still can tahan, but after a few hours I felt so giddy because my eyes cannot focus properly... go to toilet to remove T________T the same old self-invented rubbing way.. in the end my left eye got red... and the skin near my right eyelid is so pink and sore right now (because I keep on pushing it open).. I think I have a bruise around that area (it hurts when I press down, I don't think it's a pimple) sobz.... T________T

Blubbs tell me why la... Why am I so useless?? First time wearers can get the contact lens in both eyes after few hours.. I try for few days can only get one eye T___T Tell me why... sobz... Teach me how to wear lah..