STRESSSSSSSS

Blubbs... why the sudden sentimental post? All your thoughs.. is it because of your car ice-skating feat =P But I do agree.. we are indeed very fortunate.. so I'll guess we'll have to cherish what we have, make the most out of it, and try to help those that are less fortunate in return =)

On another note... Blubbbssss... I'm suuupppeeerrr streeesssseeeedddddd! It's only the third week of school, how la, next week Chinese New Year, don't think have the mood and time to celebrate.. I have got an assignment due next Tuesday (the programming one that has been driving me crazy, what vim lah, sql lah...), but till now we haven't really started on it.. My group is like heck care one.. Don't even bother to meet or discuss T_T Die la.. and my AJAX not even working, that's only the first step.. booohooo T_T You know anyone good in programming? I really need a personal programming counsultant to help me see why my code is not working... Cry cry cry... Next Tuesday I'll have to finish my final year project too... How la how la.... Chinese New Year burned lah...

I so long never read blog already.. Too busy T_T But I saw you added many nice foodie posts in the blubbiefoodies blog .. yayayay.. keep it up baby.. I love you lots.. Err.. I will cook and post pics after this hectic semester is over... And where's your pics?!!? *fuming mad liao*

Unforgivable Sinner...

Remember how you mentioned you were overblessed jean?maybe you're right...so many of us take things for granted...and that includes me...

Sometimes...things comes so easy...everything handed upon on a silver platter...that we fail to take a moment to pause...to understand...that these gifts handed to us..be it of a material good, or even the slightest gift of all like a hug or family who loves us....that someone somewhere in the world has no fortune of understanding...

Each days, there's so many utters which comprises of "I wish....If only....What if..."...failing to see what's around...

Some people lived their lives to the fullest....perfect in every way....the full package...of beauty,brains and kindness, yet they do not have the gift of life....the last breathe taken upon by some force of nature...

And here lies the other kind of people...who's had all they could have been grateful for in life...but looks upon it too easily...including me...

Of all my 22 years of life, I've never had to live a hard life.....I get everything I've ever wanted...and my parents..they never complained...from annual vacations abroad.....college life in an air cond room which cost more than the common rooms...to an education abroad in America...which more than likely not cost an arm each semester...

My mom was right when she said we have led too easy a life....while others more deserving children, bright and talented simply do not have the opportunities..not because they don't deserve it...but of circumstances not in their control....

So many what if runs through my head....of the many a times I've cause sorrow or dissapointment to my parents, the talking back, the tears....the selfishness...

Not only to family..but to friends to...how many a times has it been when I've been absolutely horrid to someone...

Or even to a mere stranger...or a passerby...or even a homeless beggar on the street...whom I could have handed a dollar to....for him to make a better day....

Like I've said...so many impossibles..of what ifs...

There's only one thing to do..that is to do them proud...it won't erase anything...but it would make up everything that did not go right...

People may say..."it's only human...people make mistakes"

Well here's what I say.....I may be only human...but I should have known better...life's too short...It's time to stop wallowing...and time to make a change...words carries no weight...so it's time to show a little action....for it's true...we'll never know how far does tomorrow goes...not only for ourself...but the ones we love....

So many deaths...each day....someone who could have brought a better future to the world...it pains me to see these lives taken away...It saddens me...but it has also brought me much realization and sense...in which I have to be a better person...I'm not saying I haven't been even a little good...but it doesn't hurt to try harder to be a better person...

Life and it's mysteries...of how the memories and words of a person lives on...with each word re-read seems so much more lively and surreal...a life re-lived with each tale,each entry...

And for those who has lost a loved one...my heart goes out to you....It may not be of any consolation...or bring back the happy memories..but I have learnt....that it's time to give back...to those of lesser fortunate....

Of Egg Custard Buns and Lam Kuih.....

Hrm....so after looking at the vast of food in my pantry, I have decided...no more grocery shopping for the next month of more....!!!!!!I had no clue I have so much stuff....so I've decided to make use of all my stuff first before buying anymore.....So I made simple stuff hahaha..eh must go to school right...so this is what I made:

Egg Custard Bun....this simple buns were quick and easy....just the usual sweet dough filled with egg custard...seeing that I am only cooking for myself, I only made four large buns...why make too many as I'll only get sick of eating them....hehe:



This is Lam Kuih(in hokkien)...I have no clue what they are called in english...glutinous rice cakes???....rough translation would be blue pastry????I had none of those flowers so I used a little blue coloring....this took a little longer but when one has the cravings for local delicacies, you just have to bear with it..booohoohoo...the kaya was just basic vanilla flavored as I haven't the slightest clue where I placed my pandan essence bottle when I moved...



It really taste more appetizing that it looks...hahaha....


And it gets better when accompanied by a glass of kopi o...hohohoho..the perfect midnight snack....and I was wondering where those extra pounds were coming from=x






So hohum....I shall make red bean mochi bread tomorrow seeing that it's friday.....not your favorite right jean=P....

Still staring at the cookie post

Eh eh.....

I just saw the picture of the cookie your mom made again..is that homemade chips I see!!!!!!!!MY superbly all time favorite!!!!!!

Whenever I go home for summer vacation ,y dad will always buy me a tin.....T___________________T....super yummy but super expensive too....like 20 ringgit one large milo tin!!!!!!My papa says it's quite tedious job that's why they charge so expensive....

I guess this new year I'm stuck making my own cookies.....again.....as usual....for the past three years....=(

Busy Drooling~~~~

Ahhhh........FEDEX/UPS/DHL/TNT/POS LAJU/SINGPOST EXPRESS/EMS me the cookiesT_________________________________T...tell your mom I'll errr help her buy ingredients......so hungry....

Err jean....by the way, when's chinese new year=x.....I have no clueT________________T....I fail as a chineseT_______________________T.....

Hrm.....so yeah went looking for your goodies....found the shirt...but haven't look for the other stores one....got myself a bubble tea.....and zoom off to school=x

To console myself for no cookies, I shall go make some red bean bunsT_T......

Hahaha....according to your post...the one person you hope to meet in heaven is your first first super crush....as for me..errr...I hope not...if there's a heaven...then please la...have mercy don't let me meet himT_T....why you ask...because isn't heaven suppose to be eternal....then how la!!!!!....forever finding different route to avoid him.....tiring enough in college when I see him walking one direction then have to reroute..heaven leh!!!!!only consolation....heaven is supposed to be filled with infinite staircase right...so forever climb staircase=x

One thing is confirmed...I am very wuliao....=x

Went swimming last week.....I think I looked like a platypus waddling n the water learning the freestyle the instructor taught me....I figured I made her laugh moreT_T....and as usual, I am super pandai..swim without goggles..so divert like to the left....so I told her..err please scream if you see me in the midst of banging into the person in the other lane.....why la so memalukan oneT_T

Yala yala.....i don't put pictures!!!!!let's just make it this way...errr:

East Side Girl, THE JEAN shall be seen as the public figure to this blog
West SIDE GIRL, THE KLUTZ shall never be seen..too scary and hideous....bwahahahahaa....

Eh but but hideous also very sweet still okay!!!!!!cannot judge by appearance=x

Pictures of my apartment la once I clean it.....what la....move also still quite messy okay*excuses*....very common problem right=P......

I'm still stuck at work for the next 2 hours......and who knows how long I have been twirling in the office chair*hrm is that why some people look at me funny=x*.....okay..back to work....*looks at patrons with big shiny eyes.....as big as my chinese mata kecil can open la!!!!*

Food food!!

Chinese New Year is coming soon.. mumsie has already made new year biscuits..


She made peanut cookies (front) and mushroom crackers (the crackers are made from some kind of mushroom which I've never seen before).. I like the mushroom crackers hee.. but I got heaty cuz I ate too much!!

Lol I'm spamming the blog with 3 posts and lots of wu liao pics.. Nothing better to do today.. haha

Fashion fashion!!

See this very yau yeng sunglasses!!! I took the pic okay... so nice horr.. *proud*



Actually this is my vainpot's brother's sunglasses... hahaha.. but I like it.. no need to buy new sunglasses le =P

Bye bye old house

See my sexy handwriting =P


Hello new house! (Actually not done yet haha)


See me so yau yeng.. *cough cough*


My err.. twin sister.. (dunno why she look very pale, not beacuse I bully her okay?)

encounters

Blubbs.. I have just finished reading The Five People You Meet In Heaven (was so sian at the library the other day that I went to dig the shelves for story books and I saw alot of good books, don't know whether I have time to read them all though) Anyways, the story is average but it does throw out an interesting fact, that people are somehow interconnected to each other, what each person does may affect another person's life, and that person may be someone close and even a total stranger.

I used to think, while taking the mrt or the public bus, that people in the same train or same bus are connected to each other in some way, or maybe the whole world is connected. The woman sitting next to you may be your mother's friend's daughter-in-law, the boy sitting next to you may be your friend's friend's brother's son etc. etc. It's kind of intriguing when you think of that, the world being full of tiny little invisible connections that brings us all together.

And getting to meet and know a person in your life is also an amazing thing, it seems like every encounter is so random yet so carefully arranged. Who would have known that the quiet girl who was in the same group as me in my lab during my first year, whom I never get to talk much with and whom I didn't know her name, went for exchange to UK and stayed in the same hostel with me two years later?

Who would have known that during the first day of my English class last semester, where I picked random seat because I didn't know anyone, I ended up sitting next to another girl who've went for exchange with us too, but whom I've only saw twice during that whole 4 months in UK (because we're in different campus)?

Who would have expected to meet your primary school or secondary school classmate who've lost contact with you at the most unexpected places? The call of your name, the turn of your head, the blank moment as you try to recall, and the ultimate surprise and mild joy that someone actually remembered your face and your name.

And when I was on the way to my Japanese studies class today, a class which I did not know anyone, I had a feeling that I might just end up sitting next to a person I know. It turns out that the guy sitting next to me is this pretty high profile guy who used to stay in my hostel, i.e. people know him, but he might not know everyone. I used to walk past him in the hostel, I used to see him talk and laugh with my friends, but I never thought that we would get to know each other because I didn't belong in that group. The only impression I had of him was him wearing glasses, a big yellow tee, shorts and sports shoes, going somewhere (but I forgot where) But who would have known? We started talking after the class and he said he'll leave a seat for me every week during class.

I don't know. It really blows me away. Those numerous meaningless encounters you've had in life are not that meaningless after all, one day they'll come back to you. Those people who walk past you everyday, the lady whom you've bumped into accidentally, the guy whom you've borrowed a ten cent coin too, they might just cross your life one day. It's like the 'Turn Left, Turn Right' story.

Fate is such an amazing thing. Wow~

Clothes

Blubbbss.. you and ur friend still want the papergirlsshop clothes?
Please give me confirmation ya.. (model name, size if any) i scared i order liao wait suddenly you two say don't want... thanks thanks~~~

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You know I'll paint the world in every imaginable hue....if it meant that you'll be closer to me....

I could have given my all....but I failed to ask myself....could you have done the same for me?

I finally understood my infactuation towards you...it wasn't because I was in like with who you were, but more so of who I thought you could be....

You were the perfect stranger...so we had cross paths in school a couple of times....like at first sight it was.....but nothing works one way....and that was what it was....

It makes me wonder....

What mystical spell you hold upon....

which makes my hear a-flutter....

Isn't it all just so funny....


People say that time heals all wounds....and so they lied.....

Cold Air for Blubbie

Errr....calm down blubbie calm down......=x

It's been nice knowing you but I think it's time we go separate ways.....why la you so scary one!!!!!!!!Of all the years I know you...what have you become...ahahahahaha...sorry jean......*sayangs la*....

Don't get so work up okay.....not good for the blood pressure=).....That dude is not worth the energy nor the language casualty to even be bothered with.....

However, on the whole, I have to agree...what a HORRIBLE PERSON!!!!...is it so wrong to be friends?poor you....hahhaa..but I have to thank him though....do you know how hard it is to drag you out to school early!!!!!!!At least now got motivation right=x..sorry blubbie.....didn't mean it in a evil way^^v

So cheer up okay....I'm off to the mall to get you your goodies~~~~~~~(eh that being said don't go into a fighting cock mode in school......that baboon is not worth it!!!!!)

Grr...

Grrrr.. I'm so mad.. I just want to bitch.. not about a girl... but a GUY... he's pissing me off since school starts.. It's quite a long story, if I were to make you understand the whole situation... but I don't care, bear with me =P

Well, to start off, I knew him in class last year.. He always sits in the row that is in front of me and one day he suddenly kept on turning back to look at me, then he asked me whether I was taking the other class as well.. and I was like yeah and we started talking.. After a few encounters, he asked me for my msn and phone number.. and he started talking to me on msn and through sms... then one day he told me, on msn, "You know something? If you weren't attached I think I would have fallen in love with you." Okay, I was quite surprised to hear that from someone I have only talked to several times. And he asked me whether I will avoid him, of course I have to say no, and so I met him sometimes for lunch or to study together blah, he tried asking me out for movies and stuff but I rejected, I only meet him in campus.

Then one day after exams, he started asking me for the msn of the girl who always sits beside me in class. I asked him whether did he know her, he said yes, they've talked on the bus on the way home. So I just gave him without thinking. And who knows one day I happen to know that the girl is blocking him on msn, so I went to ask her, and she told me that he is very irritating always bugging her on msn, and always asking her to go out with him, which she of course rejected too.

I realised that he is pretty desperate.

And then came the new semester, as I took two classes with him, he was like asking me to reserve seats (err... the kiasu culture of nus) for him for the lectures, I did. And it happened that my friend who went to UK with me was in one of the classes, and so I always sit with her (partly to shake him off) and he, tagging along, will sit with us too.

Soon I noticed that people who he always say hi to while walking along corridors are mostly girls. And I wondered whether he had confessed to them all (and got rejected XD)

Before long he was asking me for my friend's msn. Knowing how he pestered my other friend in the last semester, I didn't want to give him. And he started asking me, "Why cannot?" "Is she that private?" I don't want to ruin my friend's image and let people misunderstand her as some cold heartless girl, so I went to ask for her permission and warned her that he used to pester my friend. She said okay and that she will ignore him if he pesters her too much.

And soon soon I noticed that he became extra nice to her in class and stuff. And she started complaining to me that he is pestering her ALOT, even to the extent of asking her to sms him when she gets back from lab, messaging her good night everyday, asing her out during her birthday to treat her to dinner. Of course, she didn't like him at all. (I must tell you, he is NOT good looking at all okay! Small guy, nerdy look)

During the holidays, I broke up with ah yeff and for some reason he asked about ah yeff or something and I told him. Then he started asking me out during Christmas eve and stuff, and I quickly told him I have to go back to Malaysia. Next weekend he asked me again, same excuse. So he asked me out on one Monday for dinner instead, I was abit bad lah... I told him "If you want to eat dinner come to the area near my workplace, I don't want to travel so far just to eat dinner.. and I don't want to eat too expensive stuff.. food court can le.." That's because I want him to back off and stop getting ideas about me just because I broke up. And by the way, if you really treat me as a friend, you wouldn't mind right? Then after that I didn't ask him to confirm about the dinner, until he asked me the day before, I just said okay. Then on that day itself he said he'll go home to eat dinner instead. Haha.. my strategy worked. After that he tried to ask me out during weekends, but thank god I am always at home, so I just tell him I'm in jb.

Then now comes the new semester, and the day before school starts, the girl whom he has been pestering came to chat with me on msn. She said that the guy asked her to reserve a seat for him for class tomorrow. I was like WHAT? He didn't mention anything about sitting together in class to me at all, even when we were talking about what classes we're taking this semester!! I mean, I have been sitting with him in class last semester and now he was like wanting to sit with her and brush me aside!! I'm quite pissed off at him. (Then I realised he hasn't been talking to me much on msn) My friend didn't want to sit with him so we devised a plan, she will only reserve one seat and I will come before him and grab that seat. I don't mind being the bad guy here =D But the plan failed, I came late and I had to sit alone for the first class, not like he cares.

Then the same day, my tuition kid was asking for gloves from lab to play with (lame interest I know =_=) I used to ask the guy to take a pair of gloves from me once last semester, and he agreed. But I was quite mad at him dumping me alone in class, so I asked my friend instead. But she refused, saying that there are always people in her lab and she can't take the gloves. So I had to ask him again. And he was like giving me that kind of stuck up attitude, whining and whining and whining.. "Don't want lah, I lazy to always take gloves for your tuition kid." "Why must it always be me? Why don't you ask her(my friend)?" Then when I told her she can't, he was like "Excuses, I did that when there's people around too" At first I beared with it and I even said PLEASE and THANK YOU to him. But he went on complaining and complaining, and finally said "I shall ask her myself" (Like if he ask she will agree for his sake =_= who does he think he is) I was getting more and more pissed off at him. If you can't just say can't, why the hell are you giving me this kind of lousy attitude like I owe you a big favour. For f***k's sake, it's just a pair of F***king gloves!!! Not like I asked him to lend me 5k or rob a bank or something!! (Shit, I shold have scolded him on msn yesterday, asking him why is he getting so worked up on a pair of gloves)

In the end he asked me to remind him on Wed, which is today, but I'll never beg him again!! !@^%#&@ So I didn't. And today he just dumped me a message in msn that he'd forgotten the gloves, without any replies whatsoever. I'm very angry.. like real he'd forgotten.. he didn't intend to take for me in the first place!! He's such a bitch, a desperado and a loser! (Sorry I'm just mad) And he's still think he's all that great and clever (please, even though he's always been in the top schools, I don't think he's better than me! He only knows how to memorise! Nerd!) And please, just by the fact that no girls have accepted him before, doesn't it show that he's a loser?

I was so mad that I went to my friend to complain about this yesterday, tell her what kind of lousy guy he is and asking her never to accept him. And she was like, if we both can't stand him, why are we still hanging out with him in class. She asked me to come early tomorrow again and grab his seat so that he won't sit with us. You can be damn sure I'll rush down to class super early tomorrow!! I don't mind being the bad guy, if that's how he treats me, I'm going to treat him the same. I don't know if he's getting back at me for refusing to go out with him during the holidays. But he's not being a gentleman at all, if a guy is interested in a girl, he will treat her friends nicely so that they will help him put a good word. But he's the total opposite man, he has been thinking I'm interfering with them and he has been trying to brush me aside!!

Oh please, judging by my friend's cold attitute towards him, which include blocking him on msn, replying very slow, not replying to his text messages, not going out with him, would he still think he stands a chance? But I have to admit, my friend is much more nicer than me, she will never put him down or be mean to him, that's why he probably thinks he has a chance, but fat hope!

I'll go super early to every lectures from now on, unless he's such a f***king loser than he comes like half an hour earlier just to make sure he sits with her, not me. I'll never do any favours for him again, like lending him my notes, printing notes for him. I'll never go for lunch or dinner with him. I really regret not scolding him on msn yesterday, should I go scold him now, maybe I would, I'm pissed off enough.

Don't mess with me, I can be very bitchy too.. meow~~

a Jumble of Mumbles.

Yo yo blubbie=x


Ooooh.....I've seen your hairstyle...hahahaha...so i guessed right huh.....me likie the Rainie Yang's fringe style=P

Eh the watch got lots of bling bling.....quite cute la.....but errr I think the strap will turn yellow....so just take good care of it by not letting it get touched by water then but err sweat also will cause it to turn yellow right=x....

Miu Miu bag=.='''''''...so expensive!!!!!err....but I have to agree good leather bags are hard to find....

As for your order....I shall conquer the mall this week okay and help you find your beloved goodies=)

I only get off work at 12amT__________T...huhuhu.....but since I was helping out a friend switch shift....so they got me a pair of earrings(i don't have pierced hole...hahaha) and a large authentic baby mickey with wings keychain.....hohoho....since I also helped him by letting him use my gps for thw whole of December for their roadtrip=)

I'm not sure if I should cut china doll bunny fringe or not...seeing that I think long bangs suits me better...

Blubbie....what are we to do....graduating soon....but but have yet to decide what to do!!!!!!should I stay in this country,or try other places.....or do masters!!!!!

One thing is for sure....I am not going to go back to malaysia to find a job yet la...once go back sure stuck there forever.....in a couple of years then.....that meansT_________________T...no man chang kuih, no hokkien mee......no muah cheeT_________________T.....no mumsie and papaT_____________________________T

Singapore...everyone is going there.......so errr go with the flow??????

Haiz..one year of OPT right...might as well try the good ol Melting Pot first then.....

I dowan to do manufacturing...as in foundry.....no way.....so hot so dirty!!!!!

New hairstyle ^^

Blubbss I cut my hair already... turns out that the hairdresser who cut my hair is the si fu of the previous hairdresser who cut that china doll hairstyle for me.. Now my hair is less irritating and it looks thicker ^^ And they charge same price okay.. better ask the sifu to cut than the disciple right... haha

Come come show you my new hairstyle~ Err actually it looks the same when u cut off my hair frm the pic that day la..

Gosh.. I look a little like my sis in this pic =_=

And while roaming around in the shopping mall deciding whether to cut my hair or not.. I bought a t-shirt from sub zero ^^ 50% off... RM27.50 only... heheh

It says "Simple and Sweet".. like me~~!!! And see my sexy toe lol...