Blubbbss.... I totally understand how you feel~~ I didn't know there's horrible people talking behind your back in college, what did they say about you?
There are painful memories in my college life too.. but I have never told you about it because it involves people you know, people who come up to our apartment often, and from the way you talk about them, I'd rather you still think that same way about them, that they are nice and cute and interesting. That is why college is never the best time of my life, even though I have a soot soot housemate who goes shopping with me =) I've learned so much about people, especially the species called girls and like you, I build a wall around myself and I don't like to get too close to girls, especially those in a clique. Hanging out with a bunch of girls means you'll get to hear alot of gossips and bitching and I don't like that, it's not nice to talk about people in that manner and you can't help but wonder whether they did talk about you in that manner when you're not around. So I'll always keep quiet and just smile and give excuses not to participate in their outings and activities. It's kinda pathetic.. but it's my way to protect myself.
But I think it's okay to meet your friend up.. guys are less likely to care or mind this kind of gossip. If he wants to meet you up, I bet he is sincere, he just wants to talk and catch up with you. Trust me on this =) Because after the incident in college, the guys are still on good terms with me, it's just the girls....
Guys are not that bitchy, that's why I prefer hanging out with guys.. but, because of this... the girls see me as someone who prefers lust over friends =_= and of course, the bitching came. In their eyes, I seem to be someone flirty or desperate or something like that and this made me so so so mad. Girls are horrible meanies, aren't they? Sigh...
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