What If....

So blubbie,

Guess what, today out of the blue, an old friend from college talked to me on msn...and it's been 2 years since I last heard from him. It's funny how I've always felt as though he was my brother and now a total stranger....

To be honest, I don't feel like seeing him......cause of all the things he's been hearing from the grapvines...I don't want him to have the impression that I'm no longer the friend he knew back then.....or get the idea that I'm that of the person whom others have described....

One thing's for sure...though I may not be that girl they think I am.......vicious or evil or something along that line, I have changed. I tense up and build a wall against myself when people get too personal....for it's as though I need to have my guards up in case anyone of them is one of those people talking behind my back....

I don't want someone whom I use to confine in look at me in a different eye....or maybe he's no longer considers me as a friend and was just trying to be courteous saying that we'll meet up since he's here....

So I may be wrong and he will not judged, but there will always be the feeling that he will wonder if I was ever the person they say I am....

On a happy note, I've finally opened your package..thank you..me likie the snowglobe, so pretty....and I went swimming today...so relaxing....