What is love?

Haiya.. since you ask me to post something.. cincai la.. post random thoughts. BEWARE: Rubbish, crap T_T

Recently, I had alot of realizations about love. Don't mind me la, nothing better to do (or think about). First, I realised love is really blind, most of the time. You don't know when or why or how you fell into it. It's just this ridiculous growth within your heart suddenly, sweet at times, but irritating most of the time. What's more, in front of love, all your previous criteria about your prince charming, all your previous notions and illusion about true love and happy marriages just seem so vague and meaningless. For the person right before you, is nothing like what you've imagined your prince charming to be. Someone you'll never expect to be with, in your wildest thought, when you first knew him. But yet something about him attracts you so deeply, that you'll miss him when you're not there.. As absurd as it may seem, it's the first time I realised how truly missing someone feels, and I've never felt that way for yeffsamy.

What brings me together with yeffsamy? It's probably not true love, I know. For when he tells me he likes me, I never did think of being together with him, even though I told him I liked him as well. I never did feel the sense of joy and happines, I just felt nothing. I knew the answer right from the start. It was a mixture of silly impulse and haunting memories. For the day we went to watch a performance together was so like the day four years ago, when me and first crush went to watch a concert together. I keep telling myself, on that day, to never let an opportunity pass again. It was selfish of me. And the relationship was plain disastrous, an illusion..
for months after the relationship, I was busy enjoying my freedom, not thinking of getting into a relationship at all.

And now, I feel and think differently. Maybe I've fully put the past behind me now. I no longer shun the thought of having a relationship, even if there's no future. I even think marriage is not such a horrifying thing, after all. I no longer compare kl convert with first crush, as I can't think of any ways that they are similar or any situation with him that reminds me of first crush.

Oh well, I know this will be a major disappointment and nothing will come out of it. Still, at least, I get a chance to realise what loving someone really feels like. Love is, loving someone for who they are, not for who they seem to be. Love is, unconditional. (I know these lines are cliche and you see them everywhere, but to read and to experience is a totally different thing)